Perhaps....Maybe....(What if NOT...)

Perhaps you were right all along,
Maybe this just wasn't where we belonged,
Perhaps how it turned out would be the best,
Maybe it was just fantasy, rightfully laid to rest...

Shock and awe is how it began,
And the course of love was somehow never ran,
Perhaps the ingredients were just never there,
Maybe it was just flimsy paper, waiting to tear...

Getting ideas from some trivial words, alphabets and letters,
Thinking that you and me were 'we', for now and for ever,
Building cities and nations from a deck of cards,
Only to realise that I had been campaigning along a trail of glass shards...

Perhaps the wavelengths never quite matched,
Maybe the point of infatuation was the ultimate catch,
Perhaps I was just to eager to see things clear,
Or maybe too insecure, too lonely, in fear...

I sort of invested too heavily, emotionally,
Stubbornly declining your invites to think 'rationally',
Never entetained the scope that things could change,
And now-suddenly, its as if I'm lost in a blizzard, without a fire in life's grange...

And today I'm back where I began,
With thoughts of what could've been, dreams and plans,
I'd never considered the eventuality of life without you,
And now its killing me, as I think and un-think of what to do...

Its nobody's fault, or rather its mine,
You are still the 'perfect' man, no matter that 'we' were never really an entity in time,
You'll find your true positive soon, no 'perhaps' or 'maybe's,
While I resign myself to life with bitter sweet memories...